its almost christmas!

the above picture is my favorite piece as of yet!
its almost christmas, i've been in SB for almost half a year now!
I love it!
really i do!

aside from some lonely nights here and there...im honestly in a great spot!
im learning a lot in school, there's alot to learn and a lot of informatin handed to me
daily, sometimes its a bit overwhelming because i fear that its not all being stored properly
in my brain...i want to understand this stuff. i want to get it.
i'm getting great grades, better then i've ever gotten at city college, im working hard for them.
though my grades reflect a student who "gets it" i still wonder if i do...

still movin'

so the move out date has been pushed back.
believe me, as excited as i am to start that chapter of my life,
I'm in no hury to end this one.
Life has been fantastic.
I have the worlds two bestest friends ever.
I country line dance, at a fun safe club.
I sleep 10 hours a night.
I wake up and do as i please.
I read what I want to read.
I book gigs when they come up.
I eat pizza and wrestle with my brothers,
I stay up late reading and coloring with my sisters...
its great!
i'll be sad to see this chapter end.
My breaths are getting deeper. I'm holding them in more. Im beggining to realize that these times are special, and that they will not come again. I am blessed.

I'm not sure how im supposed to be dealing with it all. My choice has been to let it come as it comes, i'm not forcing myself to think deep thoughts, or feel deep feelings....maybe i should be. so that way when im in SB and missing the crap out of this place, i wont feel like i took it for granted.

a splash of creativity

my first

first blog....what do you say? (tap tap ) is this thing on?
im about to move.
This is my last month in LA, after this im on to Santa Barbara...
ive been kinda quiet more recently,
which is hard for others to deal with.
Im quite the social butterfly, im alive and out going for the most part....ive been quiet this week...that might have to do with the exhaustion thats been taking over while i'm practically killing myself over this final project...but non-the-less im internalizing alot of the stuff thats going on around me...and i thought creating a blog might help get it out...but...nope. rather just keep to myself.